Aspirations

I wished to be the sun
That ushered your dawn.
I wanted to be the words
That made your song..
I sought to be the dream,
That you aspired to fulfill.
And,be the strength,
That made your soul heal.

Our worlds were so apart,
The hearts,yet so close!
I wanted the spaces between us
To be filled with hope.

I strived to be the friend,
Your prayers had asked
I wanted to be the one
Who made you laugh!

You might see all doors slammed shut
I,but see a little window
Open for us..

You ask me to cherish the yesterdays
I,but keep the hope
Of yet another day...

Fears unknown

Tip-toeing around you,
Walking, as on egg-shells.
Trying to suppress a painful sigh,
A strange fear clouds my eyes!

Once I laughed fearlessly,
Aloud at your jokes.
Once you gave me wings,
And urged me to soar.

Something fearful grips my heart.
Falling, as if, in a bottomless ditch.
I just want to bury my head,
Deep in the sand as an ostrich.

Whispers the wind,
Seems like storms screaming.
Rustle of leaves,
Startled, I am left heaving.

Something nags at the base of my soul.
Caution stands guard on fears unknown
Bated breath, palpitating heart,
Finds me coping all alone.

Charade

Was there anything between us ever
That tied us together?
No foundation that your shoulder supported,
Nor any promise that made me committed

No obligations tied you;
No confessions held my heartstrings
To a lunatic dance!

Your eyes held no untold secret
My heart never missed a beat,
We were together, days were fun
We could not, but, call us one

You were like a kite,
Flying freely in the sky.
I was a free bird,
Soaring so high.

You were the master of your fate.
And, I was also content
With my state.

But,
Today, as you walk away
I realize the words you failed to say
Though, I never thought, forever
You would stay.
But,
I don’t know why,
I feel a void.

I want to call off this farce
I want to say it after all,
Though, we both had known,
It was not meant to be
Why do I feel as if you betrayed me!

Dolly,24th feb’08

Curdled Clouds

Curdled, disturbed cloud
Not like the one,
I look up in the sky
Nor the one,
I dream to ride.

Just a blob of
Spattered white
Fragmented, split,
A distorted sight.

The skies looked grey,
From my window, yesterday
The wisps of peach, but,
Smeared across, like a playful spray.

Some streaks of silver,
Edged on grey.
Some hues of hope,
Did the gloom away.

But it was yesterday!

The calm azure is threatened today,
Like ripples in the ocean blue.
Traces of hostile vagaries
Haunts my placid view.